Writing from somewhere real.
These are dispatches from the work — observations, reflections, and the occasional thing I couldn't stop thinking about until I wrote it down. Some began as newsletters. Others arrived on their own. All of them are created from somewhere honest.
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The gap between knowing you can say no and actually being able to.
I was playing with a dom I trust completely. And somewhere in the middle of it, I realised I wasn't feeling what we were doing — but I couldn't say no. Not because I didn't know my limits. Because I was terrified of what it might cost me.
The thing pleasure and pain both reveal.
When I hear the word pleasure, something moves in my body before I have a single thought. There's a rush from my heart into my throat, an impulse to expand, to open, to allow pleasure to take up more space. When I hear the word pain, something very different happens.
The parts we hide don't disappear. They leak.
Kink, when held consciously, is one of the most profound spaces we have for meeting ourselves. Not the curated self. Not the self that tries to be good or gets everything right. The real self — the parts we hide, the parts we don't fully understand, the parts that feel too much.
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