Writing from somewhere real.
These are dispatches from the work — observations, reflections, and the occasional thing I couldn't stop thinking about until I wrote it down. Some began as newsletters. Others arrived on their own. All of them are created from somewhere honest.
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The gap between knowing you can say no and actually being able to.
I was playing with a dom I trust completely. And somewhere in the middle of it, I realised I wasn't feeling what we were doing — but I couldn't say no. Not because I didn't know my limits. Because I was terrified of what it might cost me.
I was racing through my own erotic life.
For a long time, my sexuality had a kind of speed to it. A narrowness. Like I'd built a very specific internal checklist — if the intensity is right, then it counts. What I didn't notice, for years, was how much I was missing.
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